Written on 7/18/14
Wow, I’m really gonna do this!!
I saw the psych today that scripts out my nortriptyline. Last time was 6 months ago. I updated him on going to the conference and about finding the positive correlation between my having regular episodes and wearing the Nuva Ring. He agreed when I told him I’d never take hormonal birth control again. I told him about going on the supplements seriously and how it has made a drastic difference in my energy levels. He seemed excited (genuinely so, I think) when I told him I’d been running about 10 miles per week, and that I have hardly any anticipatory anxiety about episodes. He loves that I am using exercise and diet as preventatives. We also discussed that nortriptyline is now a class D drug in terms of pregnancy. (*note* I have since learned that this isn’t true, and it is still class C.) He agrees that it is dangerous for me to take it when I am not able to use a more reliable form of birth control. So, when I suggested weaning off, he was very supportive and completely on board. He said he thinks I’ve come a really long way and he thinks I can do this!! He is very encouraged that the natural route seems to work on me and encourages me to keep it up. I really think he trusts me when it comes to managing my medications! Such a good feeling, for a change, to be praised by him, (or any doc). I have felt in the past that he didn’t really know what to do with me, even though he’s never made me feel like a nut. I think he was encouraged that a tough patient is doing well. I left feeling good and with confidence that he is supporting my decision to do this.
I have SO got this! Hoping I don’t have to eat those words later, but I really think I’m going to be able to do it. Cheers!